Sunday Quotes: Whatever We Say Of God

“We must be clear that whatever we say of God in…human concepts can never be more than an indication of Him; no such concept can really conceive the nature of God. God is inconceivable.”

Karl Barth; Dogmatics in Outline

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A Prayer of Thanksgiving: For Barth and the Bathroom

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Dear Father of Grace,

Thank you for those spare moments this morning which I spent with Barth in the bathroom. And odd combination, I’ll admit. But I found it a stark reminder of your grace in basic human needs and yet your complex mystery as The Aim of our pursuits.

I recall a joke I heard once, a story of Barth’s arrival in heaven. The joke goes that Barth arrives with his entire Church Dogmatics in a red wheelbarrow which he pulls behind him as he enters the pearly gates. Then, as he is approaching your throne, a strange noise fills the heavens. After some time, Barth realizes it is the angels laughing. At him: Karl Barth with a lifetime of talk about You tossed in the back of a wagon as the man trudges along those golden streets to the chorus of divine laughter.

What a comedic reminder, dear Lord. Fill us with the laughter of the angels and enable us to never take ourselves so seriously that we cannot see the humble joke we are at our highest moments. Even Barth- who (I’m told) never accepted Dogmatics as a completed work- knew that if he did finish, he would have to start over again.

Thank you for being a God who laughs with us, when you really could and ought to laugh at us. Thank you for alluding us, humorously too. And thank you this morning, God of All, for Barth and the bathroom.

Amen

Like Rivers Through The Heart

Like Rivers Through The Heart

 

 

 

We drove up to Vermont this past week. Our route took us through rolling foothills splattered with the colors of a postcard’s autumn countryside. When we exited the highway we took a side street that ran parallel to a stream: a wide, shallow yet babbling mountain river that wove its way through trees and into the valley, beyond where I could see.

I’ve had trouble reading my Bible lately. I’m inspired by stories of men and women who’ve gone before me, whose devotional lives were stapled in place by text, as if it were as comforting and reassuring as their favorite novel or sitting down for a cup of tea with an old friend. I want that kind of faith but lately it hurts a bit too much.

It started as I was writing a note to friend who’d just lost a loved one to cancer. And I had a migraine. And with pain in my head and pain on the receiving end of my words, I wasn’t sure what I could possibly say. I figured the Psalms might be the cure. But they weren’t. I read them; I tried. I knocked but there wasn’t an answer; the door creaked open but the cabin was empty and the light in the fireplace slowly dying. They weren’t alive this time; they weren’t streams of living water flowing into my quenched and yearning soul. They were just words, words like Band-Aids for a gushing artery.

But when I looked out my car window at the river twisting its way through the valley, I felt a twinge of something I might call “hope.” For the river carried change. And change is something I can relate too, something I can see. Change is what I feel when a migraine hammers away at the inside of my skull, when a cancerous growth steals life from someone who was once standing, breathing, talking, loving and loved.

And I have little tolerance these days, if I ever had any, for theologians and Christians of ivory abstraction who say the key to faith is something like ‘trusting in the Lord’. Such notions are space shuttles observing the ramifications of a ground war. And vague instructions on faith have proven about as helpful to me as my peers in grade school were upon learning I didn’t know how to whistle:

“It’s not that hard,” they told me.

“How do you do it?” I asked.

“You just whistle.”

I pray for the grace to handle these sentiments, to see the heart behind them. But (it seems to me) that they take no account of pain, cancer, death, rivers and valleys. They take no account of life, so I can no longer take account of them beyond a soft nod and an immediate effort to shift the conversation.

But, at the same time, we should not pay much heed to our doubts, the theologian Karl Barth once said. And I have to think he wrote this it while sitting by a river.

Because with change the river also carries constancy. For rivers, as Wendell Berry notes, leave marks but bear none, though the rocks, shorelines and fallen trees penetrate and cut into them at every opportunity. And as it flows the river licks and soothes the rocks as it passes over them. It is always moving, always departing, and yet always remains. And every moment gives birth to the next.

And, like rivers, faith carries me and lifts me even when I wish to remain untouched, to depart from its path and remain on the banks of my doubts and pain, watching as the waters move past. Faith may run dry, it may overflow, but it always is: always changing, moving and flowing, even if it’s just a trickle, a dry riverbed or a fossil testifying that the waters were there years ago but have since shifted its course. Either way, the river is still there, somewhere, though maybe beyond what I can still see. Faith is there: flowing, changing, staying, like rivers through the heart of everything that I am and could hope to be.

And as we drove along its bank I found solace in the view of a river out my window.

For the river carries me, beyond the mountains, down the valley, weaving it’s way through the foothills into the setting sun. All things merge into one eventually, Norman Maclean wrote. And for a moment from the window of the car, as my eyes followed the river carrying me in its fold, I could feel every part of me merging with that One. And faith trickled into its center, babbling over stones of time and cutting its way through canyons of pain and pleasure, plains of doubt, valleys of wondrous assurance.

Faith was always there, like rivers through the heart.

 

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